February 1, 2007

The Maserati

I read her, jaw open eyes wide
mesmerized
like a voyeur,
who spies
the pinnacle prize

It sounds absurd, but
without saying a word,
"Tell me your dreams
and I will tell you my fears..."
with mine eyes I heard.

Your dreams, my dreams, all one and the same
Your fears, my fears, all part of our game.
Your hand in my hand, at least in our mind
Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...

I tried, I tri'ed
I reached out and I cried
with her when
she confessed
her surprise to me...

And I, I shared mine
The rape, the wine
that erased
ten whole years
from my mind...

Your dreams, my dreams, all one and the same
Your fears, my fears, all part of our game.
Your hand in my hand, at least in our mind
Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...

And who once was whole
Now 2 broken souls
Spoke their desire,
Unfair to all,
But out of control...

But she, being wiser than I,
Said stop! We must try
Not to paint yet
the last layer is wet -
a masterpiece begins dry...

Your dreams, my dreams, all one and the same.
Your fears, my fears, all part of our game.
Your hand in my hand, at least in our mind
Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...

Then she walked away
Said save the flame for another day
And thanks a lot
You mean so much
To me, by the way.

And now she won't call
Or text or be there at all.
Found the cave and
buried this habit
Until we meet in the fall

Your dreams, my dreams, all one and the same
Your fears, my fears, all part of our game.
Your hand in my hand, at least in our mind
Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...

And me, I can't think straight
Think she's effing with fate
Gotta let the dice roll
Even out of control.
But know what? Madison awaits...

Your dreams, my dreams, all one and the same
Your fears, my fears, all part of our game.
Your hand in my hand, at least in our mind.

Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...
Patience, Patience, 'til each other we find...

6 comments:

ironjenny said...

Buddy, buddy! You're heartbroken and it's so sad! Maserati sounds like quite the game player.
Flame? Like in fire? Isn't playing games with fire dangerous and harmful?

Thinking of you friend... wish I could send you comfort. Go snuggle up with one of those beautiful babies. They love you purely and sincerely.

Jenny

ZBUCK said...

I feel your pain completely. I tell the same story, only not quite as skillfully or tactfully.

Matt said...

Hey TJ, it looks like you're in B'ham. I first noticed the Cahaba Cycles link then the unmistakeable fence in your Buster Britton photo. Good to see there's a B'ham guy online.

Di aka "Mrs Bigun" said...

Sorry you're suffering so much.
Why is it we always want what we don't have? Speaking from a girl's side, she loves the attention from you but has no intention of returning it. She just loves the attention.Remember- She's only on a pedestal because you put her there. Stop torturing yourself. I am sorry your heartbroken. Listen to Jenny.
di

Anonymous said...

And yet everyone thinks they know everything from a few lines here and there. Maybe just the nature of man.

Lana said...

Ouch. Been there, my friend. Keep moving forward...you'll make your way out.

"When you're going through hell - keep going." -Winston Churchill